Ain't nothin' like the real thing baby...

How appropriate that this golden oldie tune just chimed in the hotel where I now work as I open up this new post. I am confused as how to go about being genuine and authentic in this blog without it becoming an emotional vomit bucket. No one likes emotional vomit buckets whatever they may so.

I am getting married in 6 days. I am incredibly excited to see old friends, to be surrounded by love, family, and friends, to see the Lord's providence in it all amidst the various challenges, and to be married to by my beloved til death separates us for a time. The nearness of the wedding has definitely heightened my anxiety concerning my insecurities and inadequacies. Maybe having a person so near and so close - like a magnifying glass - brings out the beauty in the crevices and broken places through the wondrous vulnerability.

I know this decision and this commitment are bigger and deeper than I realize at this time. I love talking with couples who have been married various lengths of times. There is a true sense of membership around those who are married. I feel like my eyes have been opened to a club that's always been in existence and I never realized they had meetings but were doing so all around me.

Here are a few lessons I'm learning:
- Not everything has to be said, regardless of how true it is.
- Leave and cleave brings about joy and loss
- Trying to change my spouse is futile, fruitless, and manipulative

As usual, this post was a big blob of randomness....which is pretty much how my mind and life works. I hope it is profitable for all involved.

WOW!

Baby Jesus just fixed my blog! Thank you miraculous Baby Jesus.

Help me!

Somehow my new blog posts do not have comments possible. Can anyone help me solve this dilemma? Please, save my blog. Baby Jesus will smile on you with His big Jewish nose and ears if you do.

Manhood

Authentic manhood is one of the greatest mysteries in my life. It bewilders me daily. I (and we as people, in general) are so intricately woven it proves difficult for me to separate the different forces at work in me. Personality, society, culture, past experiences, gender, genetics, the Holy Spirit, the enemy, my fallen nature, marketing, teaching of various types, etc. The list could continue to generate for days.

I am here to invite you on my journey of self-discovery...which I guess now makes it a group discovery for a self. Anyway...

How do you define manhood?

It's offical...

I am now an inept blogger that cannot figure out how to successfully embed a video. Children will overtake me with their technology soon. I'm sure of it.

And yes, Sarah Lew, this is coming your way soon:

My Brain on Blogs

So, anytime I sit down to write a blog post I realize my brain works like this video (complete with 80's sound effects).



I feel like there's so much heat and activity going on in the web, my brain just can not handle it. My synapses start firing like a jack rabbit in a field shooting out in all directions. It makes my blog self-esteem immediately go down that I can't stay on task anymore than a frustrated ADHD kid in a classroom.